my roots are strong and deep.

Things I would like to have right now:

• A massage
• No, really, please.
  
• A television with:
  
• Curb
  
• Woody Allen movies, so that:
• I don't have to move to change the channel at all.
  
• Sex
• To be perfectly honest, because who doesn't want sex?
  
• Really, really good sex.
• A kitchen with:
• Pop-tarts
• Lettuce
• Freshly baked cookies in the oven.
• The capacity to fall in love
• The feeling that I don't need to race to fall in love again.
• Because that sucks.
  
• Please stop it.
  
• Someone to fall in love with who:
• Is unbelievably intelligent about literature.
  
• Wears glasses.
• Is so cute I can barely breathe.
  
• Will respect my independence and femininity.
  
• Is not stingy.
• Will sing me to sleep.
• Writes.
  
• Will call me randomly to make plans in five minutes' time.
  
• But mostly the feeling that I don't need someone in my life to make me feel like I have purpose.
  
• Because I am better than that.
  
• I know I am.
• Do you like how I am full of contradictions?
• I want love.
• But only because I feel like I should.
  
• Or do I really want it?
• I guess... who doesn't?
  
• To no longer feel like such a bad person.